I am genuinely scared

I am genuinely scared about what's coming, your ongoing symptoms, which i tried ignoring at first hoping they'd go away eventually, but they didn't, and they won't. Maybe you were just sick or caught a cold, but they appeared out of nowhere and you seem fine now, but your symptoms remain. I have an idea about where this is heading, i know what you do, i know you harm your body almost every second of the day but i thought you were invincible, like anyone else would. I thought there was no way anything could break you, but i was wrong, something has, and i am so freaking scared. Scared to think of the possibilities, scared to face the reality of the situation, scared to believe anything that's coming, because there's no way i can lose you. Not now, not ever.